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Brad Doucette was working a relentless FBI counter-terrorism beat when he killed himself.
'It was 100% the job,' his widow says.
By Greg Krikorian, Times Staff Writer
On a gray morning two years ago, Brad Doucette awoke before dawn after another
restless night.
A top FBI counter-terrorism official, Doucette, 45, had gone to bed late after
one more long day. Then his sleep had
been interrupted by phone calls from agents in the field.
FBI Director Robert S. Mueller III
visited the Doucette home three times, once to hand-deliver letters from
President Bush and then-Atty.
Gen. John Ashcroft.
Doucette's family, friends and co-workers had been aware for months that he
wasn't coping well with the pressure. To hear them tell it, it was as if his
life had slipped away in slow motion. And they were helpless to stop it.
Doucette, who was born in Minnesota, grew up in Montana and Washington state. He
attended the University of Washington, graduated with a law degree from
Willamette University in Salem, Ore., and joined the FBI in 1983 at age 26.
An uncle had been in the FBI, and it was the only career that interested
Doucette. He was especially drawn to intelligence work.
His first assignment was in the Sacramento field office,
where he met
Suzane,
a divorced agent with two young daughters. In just over a year, they were
married.
They were transferred first to New York and then to Phoenix. Suzane quit the FBI
in 1993 after settling a sexual harassment lawsuit against the bureau. Brad's
career, meanwhile, was on a steady climb.
By the time the Doucettes arrived in Los Angeles in 1994, he had worked almost
all the prestige assignments: drug
smuggling, bank robbery, white-collar crime. Then he moved into
counter-terrorism.
Part detective work, part divination, the job requires agents and analysts to
interpret wisps of information — a telephone intercept in Pakistan, a suspicious
passenger on a Paris-New York flight, a paid informant's tip — to see if they
foretell an attack.
Doucette seemed to thrive in the assignment. He worked on the investigation of
the 1993 World Trade Center bombing, which killed six people and injured more
than 1,000. The bureau's detective work laid the foundation for the conviction
of four Islamic militants.
Doucette also helped supervise the investigation of the
1999 crash of an
EgyptAir
jet, which plunged into the ocean off New England, killing all 217 people
aboard. The disaster was ultimately blamed on the copilot, who investigators
said deliberately put the aircraft into a dive.
In 2000, Doucette ran the FBI command post for the Democratic National
Convention in Los Angeles.
Even before Sept. 11, he wrestled constantly with how to chase an endless stream
of leads. He worried that he might miss something, or pursue the wrong case, or
act too late to prevent an attack.
"If he had a fault, it was that he cared too much," Moore said. "When you are a
paramedic and see people die, you shouldn't dwell on their death and the loss.
It's called building walls."
Doucette "couldn't build those walls," Moore said.
After Sept. 11, the atmosphere throughout the bureau became taut. Moore was one
of three agents who helped Doucette pore over a stack of investigative leads
every morning.
"It took four of us just to get through that stack every day by noon," Moore
said.
"It was 100% the job," said Suzane, a former FBI agent. "The extreme exhaustion.
The worry. Not being able to sleep. Not being able to leave Washington."
On Sept. 11, 2001, tracking down terrorists and preventing attacks became the
FBI's most urgent priority. Three and a half years later, the relentless pace
and the pressure to stay a step ahead of an elusive adversary are wearing down
even seasoned agents.
"For many people, once they get home, they can leave their work at the office,"
said FBI chaplain Joe Williams, a Baptist minister. "The problem for federal
agents in counter-terrorism is that they can't let it go. They are always
thinking, 'Have I really covered everything today?' "
Doucette had spent nearly 20 years at the FBI.
At the time of his death, he was head of
an elite unit at bureau headquarters that investigates suspected espionage by
Iran and the Lebanese militant group Hezbollah and other Shiite Muslim
extremists.
FBI officials declined to comment on whether Doucette's suicide was related to
his work. They said there were no statistics on job-related stress among
counter-terrorism agents.
While agents worked round-the-clock to prevent new attacks, the FBI was
bombarded with criticism for having failed to detect the Sept. 11 plot.
It emerged that an agent in Phoenix, two months before the suicide hijackings,
had alerted superiors that Muslim extremists were training at U.S. flight
schools.
In August 2001, agents in Minnesota
detained a French-Moroccan flight student who they suspected was training for a
terrorist mission. The agents could not get clearance from FBI higher-ups
to search Zacarias Moussaoui's laptop computer.
"He never missed a Huskies game" on television, Suzane said.
The couple lived comfortably in one of
the Spanish-style houses that blanketed the suburb of Calabasas. Their
next-door neighbors were Scott and Victoria Sterlekar.
"I'm sure, with the job he had, he was very serious at work," Victoria recalled.
"But at home, he was really fun."
Suzane said her husband never let the stress get the best of him. Years earlier,
they'd had occasion to discuss suicide when an agent in Los Angeles killed
himself after being charged with public drunkenness and assault.
"We both agreed that suicide is never an option," Suzane recalled, "that no job
is worth it."
Doucette had never given much thought to working at FBI headquarters. But in
early 2002, he heard Mueller tell supervisors that the fight against terrorism
required more talent and commitment than ever.
Inspired, Doucette applied for a
high-level job in Washington — and got it. He started his new position directing
the Iran-Hezbollah unit in September 2002.
Doucette listened politely, Piernick said. "But when you talk to people, you
know when they don't agree with you," he said. "I don't think Brad liked to be
the bad cop ever."
In March 2003, Doucette was given
another demanding responsibility — an FBI command post launched with the start
of the Iraq war. Its mission was to oversee interviews with Iraqi exiles in the
U.S. and collect intelligence for American troops.
Juggling two jobs left him drained. "He worked seven days a week and even if he
was at home, he was constantly on the phone," Suzane said.
"
The night before he died, the couple enjoyed a simple dinner of soup and
sandwiches at a local restaurant. They talked about the usual things — family,
his job. Doucette was troubled that his
boss wanted him to fire two intelligence analysts because they could not handle
the assignment. Doucette thought they just needed guidance.
The couple got home late, and Doucette crawled into bed about 2 a.m. He was dead
a few hours later.
Suzane
has asked the FBI to honor Brad's memory by issuing a 20-year service pin — even
though he died six months short of the milestone.
She has also petitioned the bureau for death benefits on the grounds that his
death was job-related.
"Suicide is a statement and there is a degree of finality associated with that
statement," Piernick said. "You are not just killing yourself; you are punishing
someone. I am not sure who Brad was trying to punish. It may have been the
bureau."